decisions as we grow
As we grow up, we encounter numerous cross paths. These cross paths require decisions to be made in order for the next step to be taken.
I lack in decision making. I know it ticks off quite a few friends, angered a few, disappointed a few. I guess i really need to grow up. Whatever happens, I'll just do it.
I guess the reason i become indecisive is because of my consciousness for each and everybody's feelings. There will always be a pushing and pulling. One side would wish that you act this way, and the other would wish you act another. I guess at the end of the day, I just have to do whatever i want to do. In other words, stuff whatever people think/how they feel.
I guess i should be more selfish. Do the things i want to do.
What if i don't want to do anything? I just want to laze at home. In a way, that would hurt the people i have become friends with.
It's difficult for me to make decisions.
I jump into anxiety, and my mind just screws up. I then turn to irrational decisions.
As a result, i don't exactly follow what I want.
After my year of internship is complete, and my university degree is finished. I'm definitely going to travel. Maybe a small one-self trip to clear my mind of things.
Maybe I've grown up with lots of sentimental thoughts, lots of thoughts about how another would feel if i had did this.
Another wish for later on. I want to have a mind of my own. Don't get me wrong, i'll ask people for opinions, and compare and contrast their reasonings, but at the end of the day, It's really all up to me.
But yes, i would like to travel. Clear my mind. Possibly go volunteer in a third world country, help out :) I think it definitely would be marked as an rewarding experience! :)
No time to be sad, I have to enjoy whatever is happening right here, right now.
be grateful :)!